Hiya! I'm a new lady rider and I know EXACTLY how you feel. I did my cbt, which was very stressful, then booked a full days tuition after that. Then got my bike. I started off doing tiny circuits round where I live, lots of iffy starts and stops, stalls, wrong gears etc. in between circuits it would be a cigarette, chamomile tea and a Kalms tablet! I also chose the time of day when I knew there'd be little traffic, like 7.30 on a Sunday morning. At the end of each day I'd work out what wasn't going right and think thru what I needed to work on. The circuits have got longer, I sometimes talk myself thru what I need to do but also lots of deep breaths and telling myself that I do know enough to get me from a to b safely, even if a to b is only a couple of miles. I've had to go out on my own as I'm single but it's a mid life crisis that wouldn't go away, and I wanted to do it so much! All the best. X